tracywilliams:

Man, what a negative year 2011 has been for me.

Well, not all bad in some regards, but I think the biggest weight on my mind is I’ve only done about 60 give-or-take comic pages this year. It’s been bothering me for the past month greatly, but a fire wasn’t lit under my butt like I wished it would have. My brain recycled with “wow, what a failure I am” instead of “so what can I do about it?”

I used to have a yearly goal of 120-150 pages per year, and one year I almost reached it! I believe it was 2009, with 113 pages. Now that I think about it, the last two years’ resolution were “I will -concentrate- (lol) on comics more” not the scary “I will do even MORE this year! 150+ pages!!” that it should have been. I was so proud to do 100+ pages, even if I missed the goal by a few pages, why was I scared of pushing myself a little harder?

So, I feel it’s time to hold myself responsible for the specific 120-150 goal again!

2012 has a lot of projects that should have been done in 2010 and 2011 that I CAN accomplish, but I will have to keep a flamethrower on my ass to get them done. Finishing act 3, a new con book, the donation comic, and going to SPX again.

Basically, it boils down to 3 pages a week if I want to hit the coveted 150 page goal. (Ugh, just thinking how I only did 60-ish this year means…) I’ve made a spreadsheet to mark with a pen the day I finish a page. Every page this year has to go through Alice anyway so I definitely have to stay on my toes. Now, I’m not going to beat myself up if I don’t ding 150. I have to remember I didn’t make it in 2009, but I was so damn close and it felt great anyway. Just beat 113 pages!

Related resolutions for 2012:

—Strengthen my focusing “muscle.” Push myself to work a little longer each day, reread my worksheets I’ve received for my ADD, and stick with them no matter how much my brain kicks and screams. I have to remember like working out, I’ll have the big case of the “dun-wanna”s, and feeling mentally wiped by the end of the day. Then do it all again the next. If I can do it physically means I can do it mentally.

—I’ve been pretty good sticking with working out an hour+ 5 days a week for the past couple of months, but I really need to work on eating better if I want to actually lose weight. I still can’t consider to cook less calorie-rich foods, but I can cut down on portions (Ugh) and resolve to plan dinners better and only order out at least once every 2 months. (U-ugh…) I should keep track of this on my calendar too. (Ugggghhhh noooooo I depend on my crap memory to eat out lots…!)

Uwah, I feel excited and what-the-fuck-am-I-saying right now. I had the same reaction when I stated online that I will work out daily, in hopes the self-imposed sense of peer-pressure would get to me. —And thankfully, it has, even if I haven’t reported as much as I wanted to. Here’s to working towards a better year!

**wrong tumblr, lolz**

If you write things down, I find it helps.

For me, a big change in my eating habits was planning what vegetable my week was going to be centered around and supplementing stuff that either came from the frozen food section or canned. I know canned food gets a bad rep, but I’ve been using canned plum tomatoes for everything to pasta to salsa or beefing up a stew.

If you can get a walk in, alternating from walking to running every block helps too.

I’m trying to increase my cardio this year so I’m going to hit that icy sidewalk and snow tmmrw. Brrr.